Monday, October 8, 2012

Even with my dark side

Ok so many of you may know that I am big music fan. Just all music in general. I literally love everything from old-time gospel to modern hip-hop and rap. I love it all. But there is a current song by one of my favorite artists, Kelly Clarkson, called "Dark Side". This song really speaks to me and I feel like it really was written about me. I am going to write the lyrics and then explain why it is so special to me. I hope these lyrics speak to you too.

"There's a place, that I know. It's not pretty there, and few have ever gone.
  If I show it to you now, will it make you run away? Or will you stay?
  Even if it hurts, even if I try to push you out, will you return?
  And remind me who I really am, please remind me who I really am!

  Everybody's got a dark side! Do you love me? Can you love mine?
  Nobody's a picture perfect. But we're worth it. You know that we're worth it.
  Will you love me, even with my dark side?

  Like a diamond, from black dust, it's hard to know what can become if you give up.
  So don't give up on me! Please remind me who I really am!


  Everybody's got a dark side! Do you love me? Can you love mine?
  Nobody's a picture perfect. But we're worth it. You know that we're worth it.
  Will you love me, even with my dark side?

  Don't run away! Don't run away! Just tell me that you will stay! 
  Promise me you will stay!
  Don't run away! Don't run away! Just promise me you will stay!
  Promise me you will stay!

  Will you love me? 

  Everybody's got a dark side! Do you love me? Can you love mine?
  Nobody's a picture perfect. But we're worth it. You know that we're worth it.
  Will you love me, even with my dark side?

  Don't run away!  Don't run away!
  Don't run away. Promise you'll stay."


This song says a lot, because through the years I have lost many good friends. And I lost them because of my "dark side". And I hate it. Because several of these people were people I called my best friends. But I also have a few best friends right now, who have seen the "dark side" but stuck by me. I struggle with a lot in my life. And I don't tell people on a daily basis my struggles because it will surely bum them out. And for those reading this that know me, I don't like bumming people out. I enjoy making people laugh and that's important to me. Because I struggle with self-confidence I try to be the funny one. That way when I'm meeting new people they don't remember that I am a "curvy" girl. But that I made them laugh. I put up the funny wall because it makes me feel good to make others laugh, but it covers my pain. But every now and then my pain shows through and I am not the easiest person to be around. It's that red-head stubborn temper. I really try to keep it under control. And I am very thankful to my friends and wonderful fiancĂ© who has seen that "dark side" many times and has yet to leave me. And it means a lot to have someone love that "dark side" of me. The line "Don't run away! Promise me you'll stay" gets me every time. It is a plea for someone to be supportive in the valleys of life. We all need someone to love us through it all. Good times and bad. And I am lucky to have them in my life. Thanks for loving my many sides :-) Love you guys!! 

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